Diamonds in the sky ;
I remember saying I liked this drummer boy,
But things changed I guess.
I love this boy,
His name is Zalman.
He makes everything better and he makes me smile.
Most of all, he loves me.
I know drummer boy was a so call for sure thing, people have been asking what happened to him.
Thing is nothing happened, that's why I moved on.
He didn't want anything to do with me, and I think he did not like the idea of having me trying to woo him over. I tried my best to talk to him, to try to get to know him better, but things just won't work out.
I love Zalman, I have strong feelings for this guy.
Whenever he says I love you, that feeling pops out of your mind. And it makes you want to smile.
He loves me more than I do, but I love him till I can even fly over right now.
Yes, I'm experiencing long distance relationship. He's in Perth, Australia.
We do skype most of the days, but it's just that one thing missing.
Being by each other's side.
Maybe I have said I would wait for Drummer Boy after my exams, but I really see no future with him anymore. He has already given me faith to fail.
But all I gotta say is, thank you Drummer Boy. At least I could love you from a distance without you knowing. "Hiding all my feelings just to save your pride." that's what I want to give you a quote about my experience liking you.
Zalman, I will promise you that I will try my best to make things work and I will love you with all my heart. And if you ever decide that things aren't going the way it suppose to be, I'll understand your decision and I will still care for you no matter what happens. But right now, I love you so much. You're one of those reasons why I want to smile, because you say the most weirdest things and you manage to make me laugh anyways. I love you with all my heart.
Yeah don't give up on me ;
Hello, it's been long. Hahhaha.
So, I feel kinda shitty right now. I just wanna pour things out.
Obviously I can't stand this heart ache.
Anyway,
seeing things from the past make me upset.
And the reason I don't like going back there is because,
imagine having those people lie to your face,
at that moment, you just wish it was just a dream.
And you just wish everything didn't happen,
but if it's fate then I can't change anything.
The picture is me with Chris.
He's been there for me from the start of everything,
despite I'm busy from school,
he still make sure I'm smiling if I'm upset.
He's my brother, bestfriend and guardian angel.
No, not friendzone shit.
I'm just thankful for him being in my life.
I was just thinking,
if things were still the same right now,
would everything still be so stable?
Would you have stayed until so long?
I mean, you left me with broken promises.
Well, we both have flaws.
If we were still together, would things be the same?
Or things would have changed?
Life right now is so perfect.
I don't want any heart breaks.
And I have the most amazing friends in my life.
Everyone is what I've always wanted.
Best support group, best advice givers, best jokers.
Don't want to ask more, they're all just the way they are.
I love you all.
So happy that there's no more drama,
no fights, no argue.
Finally things are patched up,
I can finally say I love life now.
And whatever happens,
it always have a reason behind it.
And I am being those girls that has a crush on someone,
that doesn't know that they exist.
Pathetic ain't it? Hahhaa.
Even I should know I shouldn't do that.
But hey, love is love.
We can't really do anything.
That's all I guess.
Moving on ;
Wow, this is long ahhahaha.
Hey everybody. What's up?
It's been long since I've touched this blog.
So hows everyone? It's been long since I've talked to everyone.
Exams right now, but I don't really give a shiz.
Things have been better, I feel so freaking relief by everything.
No more distractions and no more shit I have to deal with. I'm so happy.
Holidays are coming up, I can't wait.
Hangouts, movies, everything.
And then after that is all study study study.
SPM hahaha.
Not sure what else to write, so bye peepz.
I'm not that naive ;
Been long since I've posted my own picture.
Hahhaa, hi derp face.
So, hows everyone? I'm dandy.
Holidays are good so far. Been busy this time.
I was suppose to go to Interact's MUN thing today,
but I had a fever and I was really really bummed.
Everyone was there. Ng'aw.
Smart Holiday? Bleh.
I have no goddamned mood to do that shit.
Copy paste!
That's all, just a quick update.
For the first time ;
March holidays just started.
And the whole week I guess I'm kinda busy.
Mon&Tues to school for Arts.
Then Fri,Sat&Sun maybe to Penang if the girlfriends can go.
I just watched a video.
It got me thinking,
things were alright back then.
And yeah, I did what she did.
I broke it off.
But, right now I don't know.
Things were not suppose to be like that then.
Right now, all these song that we used to hear.
I still felt something there.
Like, it never disappeared.
First love never dies.
Maybe it did for him,
but it hasn't for me.
He moved on faster than I could.
I hurt him worst,
but I still can't get over him.
Other than that,
I guess life is okay.
And just wish things were better.
Funny isn't it ;
How things were,
And how are things now.
We were happy once,
Now we're all broken apart.
All of us used to be best friends,
And now all of us are enemies because of others.
I wonder,
How things would be if we all remained the same situation.
Don't really know what I'm thinking actually,
I miss those times, really.
Bestfriends, Lovers.
We all would hangout together.
And now we're all falling apart.
No one likes anyone now.
And all caused by a few jealousy/stupidity/immature attitude.
I try to make it work,
But someone just had to break things apart.
We used to talk, but now we're all seperated.
I'm hurt, and so depressed over this situation.
Everyone is seperated,
I have to accept the changes,
but I still have faith that things will be restored.
Someone just has to put the effort in.
"Yeah they're making us crazy, don't give up on me baby."
Beeeeee-itch, PUH-LEASE ;
HAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA.
I seriously feel like laughing at your face lah.
Proves that you only pick people to be your friends.
Such a spoil child.
Haiyo. Child, learn child.
Mak bapak tak ajar ke?
Ok lah. Up to you.
You rather be friends with someone which is fake to you,
And lying to your "bestfriend"?
OK BRO. TAKDA MASALAH BRO.
Done ranting. ^^v
